I'm making a new journal. The name is "athens31108". You can find me there!
Man, I haven't updated this thing in forever...
Two classes left. Then IDPH test August 15th, closely followed by Decatur Fire Department test. Studying my ass off for the test, I'm gonna kick its ass. Then this fall, I take my Hazardous Materials Tehnician and Vehicle/Machinery Technician classes. Then this spring, I'll go take my National Registry test. Then next fall, my Critical Care Paramedic class... that adds up to like $2,400 in side-classes. Plus continuing classes at LLCC, and other ones I'll pick up in that time... Who says Paramedics don't make good money? lol
Looking at some houses in Athens. I think I'm gonna stick with my apartment for now though.
NERO doesn't hardly exist for me anymore. And I'm happy. I'd rather be in class.
Looks like I might be Union President soon. Hah, Union President as a Basic and at age 22, who da thunk?
Got called into work, and now they're watching porn in the day room... awkward moment. I'm outs!
I have GOT to vent...
My frustration level is so high right now. I can't shake it. Just so much going on, and so much to think about....
She never called back. Like usual.
Class is going.... well, it's going. I'm doing fine, it's just boring. I don't think my instructor wants to, well, instruct, because there seems like a lot of lack of effort. Maybe I'm selfish, but I drive 70 miles to and from home/work to go to class every Tuesday and Thursday. I'd like to be in class actually having class for more than 2 hours a night. It's almost done at least. I'll have clinical time done by mid-April, then I think I might look for a part-time job. And get my gym membership, I think Jason's got me sold on FitClub.
I got a fat Tax Return, due to paying for all of my own classes, so I'm going to have my car paid off once it comes it. I think I'm going to try to make the Monte Carlo last until class gets over, then, once I get my fat $0.19/hour pay raise, I'll look into a new vehicle. I really want a Jeep of some sort, or a Trailblazer. A vehicle to be proud of.
Job is going well. Looks like I'm either going to be the secretary or president of our union soon. Considering I just signed a 2 year contract with the county (although I could easily get out of it), I could be here for a bit.
Well, job is going ok I guess. Had a lot of things that make me question it recently. Lots of people dying. It's really depressing, and makes me question my job, my place, and my Faith. I've taken a big turn towards religion recently, for many reasons. I feel like I need to have God in my life with a job like this. I don't know how other people get through it all without Him.
I hate NERO drama. I hate worrying about why she won't talk to me, even though I know why. I hate the decisions I've made. I need to get away from that mess. I hate looking back at both mine and her old entries, and seeing the happiness I left behind.
Other women, well... they let me down a lot. Maybe I'm just expecting too much. Or I'm just expecting them to be more like her.
- Music:Three Days Grace "Never Too Late"
That was the worst shift in a long time. Not because of anyone. But because the furthest we went from quarters was to go get a river reading, which is only like a mile away, if that. No calls. Sometimes that place sucks.
Sitting at the firehouse again, thinking too far into too many things.
I need to get my computer back. They tried to say the power supply was burnt out, but it sure as Hell didn't give me any problems while I had it. I didn't even ASK them to look at the power supply, wtf?!
Class is tedious. I wanted to go in and pick up on things I hadn't before, but I don't feel like I am, because he's not teaching anything I haven't heard before. Maybe I knew more than I thought coming out of the last class. Or maybe I'm picking up on it, but just not realizing it. Maybe I'm expecting too much. I could see that. But by the time this is done, I'll have spent $6,000 and over 2,000 hours of my life towards becoming a paramedic, I'm allowed to have some sort of expectations, right?
I wonder if she ever thinks of me. Kind of an emo question to ask, but I do. She's better off anyways.
I broke down last night at work. I think it was a combo of recent events, and not having anything to distract myself with, for example, calls. Maybe I've just got too high of expectations with this new girl. Maybe I've got too much hope, when I've always been the one to fall on my face. We'll see, I'm going up to her house the third weekend of January. I'd planned to go to her college, but she said she'll be home that weekend, so not only am I going to meet her mom, but I'm also going to be going to Marengo. Weird.
My partner was in a dilhole mood, which didn't help. But eh, you'll have that. I don't understand how we usually get along so well, since we both come from INCREDIBLY different lifestyles. Him, with his rich family and getting everything he wants. Me, with continuing to struggle even with a good job. Him, with his divorce and remarriage, and child he only gets to see every 4 days. Me, having thrown away the woman of my life for nothing, and just now starting to date again. The list could go on. But we clicked. He's my best friend.
I'm going to fire college in Champaigne this May. It's exciting.
I've been looking into the Army Reserve, and the National Guard. I feel like I'm not doing enough with my life, and that I could be doing so much more. I'm taking my ASFAB (I think) test in a couple of weeks to see what'd be available to me. I got all the pamplets, and there's only a few jobs I can really see myself doing. Did you know that there's job listings in those pamplets for the band members? Like, that's their primary thing. All they do is play the piccilo! I don't think I could live with that, lol.
Maybe I'm more comfortable in Hell.
- Location:Athens Firehouse
- Music:Carrie Underwood "Just A Dream"
... I have no idea why that phase came to mind.
I'm out at the college right now, ended up leaving clinical time early. I just get too bored in the ER. I hated being there when I worked there, and now I'm going to school there. At least before I was making $14/hour. I got a little more stern with the nurses, telling them I didn't want to be stuck doing tech duties all day. Well, that backfired, because now I only get an IV attempt every few hours instead of every hour. I don't know how that works, but meh. I'm good with IVs, and already have all I need for class, with 7 more months to go.
Yay, 7 more months. Of the same crap I've read about and studied for the past 2.5 years. What joy. For $7k/year increase in pay.
Had a good call yesterday, three traumas with one accident. Then I find out the patient who's blood I was covered in is positive for Hepatitis C. Talk about a change in mood. I don't think I got any on my skin, mostly on my coat and extrication gloves. Still, have that chance, and, well, it pisses me off more than worries me.
Missed my only IV attempt up in Menard yesterday. Then found out I missed a structure fire while doing ride time as well. Then lost my radio (which I still haven't found). Then, to top it all off, I'm walking up the rickety-ass stairs to my apartment, careful not to slip on the snow, with a horseshoe and cheese in a to-go container. I reach to open the door, and the container with the cheese on it takes the epic journey off the horseshoe container and hits the stairs, sending creamy delicious cheese all over my stairs and the side of my apartment building. I got inside, pissed off of course, and opened the horseshoe container. Have you ever seen a horseshoe with no cheese on it? After that, I was just depressed.
My partner-in-crime (and at work) wants me to get a membership at FitClub, and start working out with him. On shift-days, he gets up at 4:30 in the morning and goes. I told him he was on crack, that 4:30 doesn't exist to me unless someone is dying or something is on fire. I don't know, I might. I tried the membership at the gym in Athens, but it's really hard to get motivated when I don't have anyone to work out with. It was awesome when Evan and I went to Gold's Gym after class back in the day, I always felt great. Now I just don't want to get out of bed in the morning.
There's two nursing students sitting next to me, reading off their computer screen and writing in a notebook. They're talking about Acid-Base Balance. Acid-Base balance makes the baby Jesus cry. I just corrected them on Respiratory vs. Metabolic balance. How? I don't know....
1) Quit Smoking
2) Get in Better Shape / Go Gluten-Free
3) Study More
4) Get a new Car
Ok, to elaborate...
1) Need to change routines. No more smoking after dropping off the patient at the hospital (Jason will help me with that). No more smoking directly after every meal. Chew gum more often when I get the urge to smoke. Find something else to do when I get the urge to smoke. Possibly get on nicotine patch.
2) No more wheat, rye, or barley. Which means no more of most beer and bread. Can still have corn, rice, and potatoes (woot!potato!) No more Soy Sauce (I love sushi....>.<). No more breaded anything, no meatballs, meatloaf, pizza, or pasta (I hate pasta anyways). No pancakes, waffles, or cereal. http://www.femalemuscle.com/wilkins/basic_training.html
, schedule-permitting. Might get some weight-lifting equipment to deck out my spare bedroom with for X-mas.
3) Open my medic and fire books more often when I'm at home. I'm developing a very "know-it-all" attitude, especially with EMS. I'm not really feeling challenged in class right now I guess. Meh, I've got 4 state tests to take with the State Fire Marshal's Office, plus a final coming up. Should have some encouragement. If I'm going to have to sit through this entire class again, I need to come out of it the best damn Paramedic I can.
4) My car sucks. I deserve a good one. I have the money to do so. I'm looking at an '04 Jeep Cherokee Sport, close to 13k. It'd be nice. Need a co-signer though, and don't have one.
Thing's are going well for once. I'm kind of dumbfounded over everything that's happening. One more thing, if it works out, I think I'll be the happiest I've ever been. We'll see.
Everything's changing, and I'm not sure how I'm adapting to it. I've got my first full-time job, here at Menard County EMS. My car's running fine. I'm caught up on almost all my bills. I'm signing a lease for an apartment in Athens tomorrow, and moving on the 16th. I start the paramedic class again this August. And I'll be getting on Athens Fire Department as soon as I move into town there.
It's just so weird. Everything's becoming so straight-forward, and I'm used to questioning everything I do. Now, I'm on a path, and I refuse to stray from it. I've got almost everything going for me at this point, and it's a strange change of pace. Only one thing missing now. Hopefully I go to Springfield again this shift, so I can try to remedy that. I'd be estatic. I can't even put it into words how happy I'd be.
We'll see what happens.
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UK Pink Ugg Boots
- Music:"Life In a Northern Town" Sugarland
Man, things are going crazy recently. I've got so much going on, I don't even know where to start...
I guess I'll start with work. We've got two full-timers that have either put in their two week notice, or will be quitting within 2 months. Everyone's saying that I'm going to get a full-time job offer. I've been waiting for this since I got hired up here, and now it's almost here.
What (kinda) sucks is that I just had my interview with Superior Ambulance up in the suburbs, and they offered me the job on-the-spot. I told them that a lot of things were happening with where I was currently working, and they gave me up to two months to decide on it.
What Menard Offers
- 24 hours on / 48 hours off
- Full Benefits, including Retirement
- $38k / year (For Paramedics after the contract is agreed upon)
- Making $8.50/hour
- $0.50/hour increase in pay while in Medic class, and paid class time
- Running 911 calls
What Superior Offers
- 70 hours every pay period (2 weeks)
- Full Benefits, including Retirement
- $9.54/hour, with $5 for each call ran (average 1 call/hour)
- Making minimum $11.54/hour + $7 per call as a Medic
- Possible 2 4% pay raises each year for merit
- Pays 100% tuiton for first semester of Medic class, then a percentage of the second semester equal to my final grade for the first semester
- Large call volume, but all calls are inter-facility transfers
If I take the job in Petersburg, I'll be looking to move to Athens most likely, so I can get in the county. If I take the job with Superior, I'll be stationed in either Schaumburg, Carol Stream, or Glen Ellyn, but I'm not required to live in those specific suburbs. Moving that far away is just a huge change that I don't know if I could take, considering the culture shock of moving from a town of 4,400 people to the suburbs of Chicago. Just don't know yet.
I signed up for the Paramedic class out at LLCC this August. Haven't figured out how I'm going to pay for it, but, well, at least I'm signed up.
Might be going out to the Fire College in Champaigne at the end of this month with Billy. Depends on fundage. I'd love to get into some of the technical rescue courses they're offering.
There's a lot of shenanigans revolving around our house right now, and it's really frustrating. Glad it looks like I'm moving soon either way, I don't feel like dealing with it. I'd like to get an apartment or a small house to myself, but we'll see what happens.
Relationship status is single as ever. I think I'm ready to change that though, still thinking about it. Guess I'm too picky. There's someone that I'm interested in, but it's difficult catching up with them with the schedules that she and I work. Eh, it'll happen eventually and I'll go from there I guess.
I guess that's all for now, I've been up since 5:30am. Definently shenanigans.